As the saying goes, "you reap what you sow". I sowed seeds of anger and it bit me back really hard with a big snarl! I sowed seeds of disappointment and I got what I asked for magnified ten times! It doesn't take a genius to figure things out. I made poor choices. I keep on picking the wrong seeds. I guess that's why life gave me a hard time... You know, just to knock the sense out of me. It's like God telling me, "My child, you could do a lot better than that." Well, heck yeah!
All of this nostalgic drama was induced when I was looking at my Belle De Jour Diary Book and my Date Book. I looked at the blank spaces... My heart is overwhelmed over the thought that I will fill them with wonderful and happy memories this time. I'm very excited to meet new people, learn new things and visit new places. I'm moving from the backseat and grabbing the wheel of my life. No one should be responsible for my happiness or sadness but me. And obviously, the choice is easy to make. Of course, I choose happiness! I know i could never do it without my "champions"---my God, my family, friends (aka therapists haha), coaches and my dog.
|Cobe never failed to brighten up my day. ^_^|
|Mommy is my greatest champion|
Every hero, in my case heroine, needs a posse. I have an amazing posse and I'm bringing them with me as I move on to truly living life, wether they like it or not. :-b
I now know what I want and need to succeed in life. I've got a new attitude and I now face problems head-on. I'm sick of negativities and dramatic issues. Im planting a new set of seeds this time. I will face all of them with my bright smile, optimism and loving attitude! <3
I survived 2011 with much grace and love... So 2012, I can't wait for you! Bring it on!